Incubus - Chap 50

"See? I can move, Riku..." Tomoe winced as she leaned on him, walking towards the hospital. She was still in pain, but her son needed her. She couldn't just let him die in the hospital. They had Renata look after the twin girls and Loki as she and Riku made their way to the hospital.

Riku sighed as he sat her down in a chair. "I'll go get coffee. If you're not here when I come back I'll go looking for Junn's room." He said, kissing her cheek before running off.

Tomoe nodded as she watched him run off. She took in a deep breath and leaned back in her chair. She was in a lot of pain herself, her lower half still not feeling put together, but she had to keep going. She just had to remember her willpower.

There was a man, a couple seats down from her who kept glancing at her before looking away. He was a brunette but had a hood on to hide his face. He appeared to be very tall.

Tomoe looked over at the man and blinked. He looked oddly familiar. She tilted her head as she looked at him.

The man turned his face further away as he casually reached for a magazine.

Tomoe frowned. She didn't know why, but the familiar feeling only grew stronger. Seeing him turn further from her only made her want to know him more. "Sir?"

He didn't answer her.

“Sir? Excuse me...but I can't reach the magazines." She smiled warmly. "Could you...pass me one?"

He grabbed one and handed it without turning his face.

She frowned, taking it. "Thank you..."

He gave a nod as he resumed his reading.

Tomoe sighed and flipped through the magazine. It really wasn't that interesting. At least, not as interesting as her interest in the man. She wanted to know whom he was.

The man sighed as he sat down the magazine and grabbed another. He hadn't counted on another person in the room...

A few more moments of awkward silence passed between them before a nurse came in. "Kasai?" She called. "Junn Kasai?"

Tomoe raised her hand, not being able to shoot out of her seat. "I'm here for Junn!" She said eagerly.

The man lifted his head at the nurse.

"He's right this way. He's still in critical condition, but he's well enough to take visitors." The nurse smiled as she turned towards his room.

Tomoe blinked as she got up and looked at the man. He knew Junn? How? She carefully got to her feet and started to walk with the nurse, though she was wincing the whole way.

The man looked hesitate. He wanted to follow, but he couldn't. Not with her there...

Tomoe smiled at him. "Come on. I'm sure Junn wouldn't mind another friend in the room." She breathed.

The man kept his hood low but followed.

In the room, Junn was sitting up, coughing into his hand as Toshiro was tending to him. The man had stopped in the doorway as Tomoe continued inside.

"We're unsure what it is, Mrs. Kasai, but we're doing everything for your son, and it is not contagious."

Tomoe frowned as she looked at the second nurse. "Is it...fatal?" She asked, biting her lip.

“At this point, we have to say yes..."

Tomoe gave a little squeak as she grabbed her chest. She shook her head as a few tears trickled down her cheeks.

"I am sorry... I will give you some space..." The nurse said and left with the other one.

"M-Mom..." Junn breathed. He was quite pale and covered in wires. "Y-You should b-be at home..." He choked out.

Tomoe turned around and shook her head. She went to her son as Toshiro gave up his seat to her for her to sit down. She took his hand, a few more tears trickling down. "A-Are you kidding? M-My son needs m-me..." She sniffled.

"T-Toshiro... i-is here..." He breathed, coughing some more blood into his hand. His pale eyes had drifted to see the man in the doorway. "Wh-Whose the m-mysterious man?"

Tomoe sniffled a bit more before looking up. "I...I-I thought he was a f-friend...You don't k-know him?"

"No..." He blinked.

Toshiro furrowed his brows. "Is that...?" He moved to the man.

The man shook his head and stepped back.

"T-Toshiro...?" He coughed again as he looked over at his mother with confusion.

"Toshiro...come back." Tomoe told him. Toshiro stopped and went back to his brother. Tomoe had gotten up this time and went to the man. "Alright, buddy, I don't know who you are, but I need to know now. For the sake of my son." She breathed.

The man shook his head and turned to leave.

Tomoe reached out, though, and grabbed his wrist. "Wait!"

"H-Hey..." He ripped his arm away before bolting down the hallway.

"Stop!" Tomoe called out. She couldn't chase after him.

The man accidently ran into a nurse and fell to the floor with a groan. His hood had fallen down as he stared at the ceiling with a sigh. He was so useless...

Tomoe's eyes widened as she gasped. "H-Hoshi?!"

He closed his eyes and just remained on the floor.

She moved to him, getting to her knees. She brushed her hair back as she looked at him. Tomoe hadn't recognized him. "W-What happened...?"

"I bumped into a nurse and hit the floor." He mumbled, his eyes still closed.

She shook her head. "Not that...You look...mortal." She breathed.

"I am almost..." He mumbled. "I kept telling you my clan was dying out due to wars..." He mumbled. "I'm merely a demi-god."

Tomoe frowned. "You're...turning mortal?"

He opened his eyes. "Yeah..."

“Oh Hoshi..." She breathed and went to brush his bangs, but bit her lip and folded her hands in her lap. "I'm sorry..."

He sat up and sighed. "Sorry for barging in..." He mumbled and got back to his feet.

Tomoe got to her feet a bit uneasily and shook her head. "No...Hoshi, you have every right to be here to see your son." She breathed. "I...I'm happy you're here..."

"Who am I kidding? He didn't even recognise me. None of you do. You wanted me gone." He mumbled. "I'm not meant to be anything. I should have died when I was attacked hundreds of years ago. I never should have been a god. In all my life with you, I only made one child love me. And you were miserable."

"Stop." Tomoe reached out and grabbed his hand. Her head was hung low before she pressed her forehead to his chest. "I loved you--STILL love you, Hoshi..." She breathed. "I...I just couldn't take the loneliness..." She looked up at him with her bluish pink eyes. "Please...don't go." She shook her head. "Our son needs us...both of us."

"Junn hates me, Tomoe." He breathed.

"He's dying, Hoshi." Tomoe looked at him. "You're going to leave your dying son?"

“I don't think he'd care if I was there or not..."

"I care."

He frowned at her.

Tomoe looked down and put her hand in his. "I know you love him..." She breathed. "But he needs to know that...If he's going to die," her voice started to waver, "he needs to know he was wrong about you. He needs to know that you do care for him."

Torakkaa looked away and sighed. "I... don't know Tomoe..."

She squeezed his hand. "Please, Hoshi..." She pleaded. "Please, stay..."

He sighed. "I don't think it will do much... but fine..."

“Thank you, Hoshi..." Tomoe breathed and blushed a bit as she remembered her hand was in his. She pulled away from him before going back to Junn's room.

Junn was in a hacking fit when they entered, spitting quite a bit on blood on the floor.

Tomoe went over to his bed and tried to help Toshiro clean up Junn's mouth. "Oh sweetie..."

Junn was wheezing as he tried to catch his breath.

Torakkaa sighed as he stood in the doorway again.

Tomoe frowned. "It'll be okay...I promise..." She breathed, kissing his forehead and brushing his silver hair. "What...can I do for you?"

"Wh... Who is h-he?" He coughed.

"Your father." Torakkaa sighed.

Junn blinked.

Toshiro took in a deep breath. "I...thought you were familiar." He breathed. Toshiro loved his father, but he couldn't leave his brother's side.

Tomoe looked over at Torakkaa before back at Junn. "Do you need anything?"

“I-I w-want him g-gone..." He coughed.

Tomoe frowned. "I know...you two aren't close...but he's your father, Junn." She breathed. "He loves you."

"M-Make him l-leave..."

Torakkaa nodded. "I am sorry to have barged in. I will leave. I will pass soon anyway..." He breathed and walked out.

“No! Hoshi! Wait!" Tomoe quickly left after him.

Toshiro frowned. "She still loves him..."

"Of course she does..." Junn wheezed. "Y-You can... g-go after him... I-I... know you love him..."

Toshiro shook his head. "No. I'm staying with you." He breathed, dabbing Junn's mouth again.

"Brother... please... I-I know you l-love Dad..."

"I love you more." He stated.

"I-I'm not going to die in five minutes... go..." He smiled weakly.

Toshiro frowned. "But...I can't leave you..."

“Toshiro... please... go..."

Toshiro frowned. "I'll be right back." He kissed Junn's forehead and rushed out of the room to go after his parents.

"Tomoe, stop." Torakka said as she was trying to stop him,

"But Hoshi...You're his father." She said.

"He hates me, Tomoe. I'm not going to live much longer anyway."

She shook her head. "Don't say that!" Her voice grew two octaves.

"I am. When my clan dies out, I die."

Tomoe started to cry. "You can't die, Hoshi!"

He sighed. "I'm sorry."

“Y-You can't d-die..." She shook her head, sobbing.

"You have Riku now."

Tomoe touched her necklace, the one he gave her. "I-I'll...a-always have y-you..." She sniffled between sobs. "I-I l-love you..."

He frowned. "Tomoe... just stop..."

She shook her head. "I-I still th-think about you..." She muttered under her crying.

"Tomoe... I always think about you... but you and I... clearly were not meant to be... our children... hate me... and I couldn't balance my duties and this family... I am sorry. If I could go back, I would. But my life force is draining, even now. Today I'm a demi-god. Tomorrow... I could be dead."

"I-It's not fair...!" Tomoe stamped her foot. "I LOVE you!" She looked at him. "I just want a normal life!" She cried.

"You can... with Riku..."

"But...he already has his wife and husband...I love him and he loves me, but...he shouldn't love me." She shook her head. "I'm poison...I'll ruin him..." She breathed.

"Tomoe..." He grabbed her shoulders. "Don't you see? I'm the poison... since the beginning it's been me... I was the downfall of my sister and now I'm yours... you need to let go..."

Tomoe shook her head. She couldn't let go. "I-I'm the poison, Hoshi...I've never been able to keep a man...I was a drunk...I was always being taken advantage of..." She breathed. "You saved me! You showed me a different light!"

"What light? I gave you three children and loneliness."

“You showed me love..."

He sighed and shook his head when he saw Toshiro running towards them. "Oh Kami... not him too..."

Tomoe sniffled.

"Dad!" Toshiro took in a deep breath as he stood before him. "Dad...please...don't go." He shook his head.

"Son... I have missed you..." Torakkaa frowned.

Toshiro nodded. "I've missed you too...You've missed out on a lot." He breathed.

Torakkaa frowned. He had to leave. His mortal instincts were taking over. All he wanted was to hug his family and cry and beg to return, but he knew he couldn't.

"Dad...please, don't leave." Toshiro frowned.

"Son I... I have to..."

"No, you don't..." Toshiro shook his head. "Please stay?"

"I-I can't..." He looked away. "Only you two care... and... I'm going to die soon anyway..." He couldn't hold back the tears brimming in his eyes.

"Die?" Toshiro frowned. "Dad...you're going to die?" His voice cracked a bit.

Tomoe shook her head. "N-No...H-Hoshi...you c-can't..." She shook her head, grabbing his hand. "P-Please...s-spend your l-last breaths w-with us..."

Torakkaa shook his head.

"But Dad..."

"I can see this is tormenting you, Hoshi." Tomoe breathed. "Why can't you just stop being selfish and let us be with you?"

He looked at her. "Selfish!? How am I the selfish one?!"

"Because you're keeping your emotions in!" Tomoe yelled back. "You won't tell us anything!"

“I don't see your point!”

‘That's selfish!" She threw her hands up. "You keep everything to yourself! We're a family! You're supposed to be open to us!"

"You left me! That doesn't make us a family anymore1"

Tomoe looked as if she had been slapped. She took in a deep breath and spoke quietly, "I left you...because you kept to yourself..."

"Because I was a god, Tomoe! You knew that right from the day we met!”

"You still could've talked to me. You could've told me what you were feeling when we DID meet together." She looked at him.

"I was a god! I don't have feelings as I do when I'm human!"

"So...you didn't love me...when you were a god?" She frowned.

“I-I did... just... more when I'm human..."

"So if you could feel love...you could feel other things..." She breathed. "You could've shared that...What you were afraid of, what you were happy with, what made you sad...Those are the things husbands and wives share with each other. You didn't tell me any of that..." She shook her head.

“I'm... sorry... but that's all over now.."

Tomoe frowned, looking down. "I...wish it wasn't...I miss you..."

"And... I missed you..." He looked at Toshiro. "I-I missed all of you..." He bit his lip, knowing his human emotions were coming through.

"We...would love for you to stay and be our father..." Toshiro breathed.

Tomoe squeezed his hand. "I...I would give anything...to be with you properly."

"What about... y-your brother? J-Just going to leave him... f-for me again?"

"He wants me to be happy." Tomoe told him. "He wasn't a fan of you because you were like all the other guys...but if you could prove to him that you would make me truly happy..." She bit her lip. "We could...all be happy together."

"So you want to... still fuck him..."

"I...I don't know..." She bit her lip. "I'm so confused..."

"Mrs. Kasai!" A nurse came running down the hall.

Tomoe turned around at her name.

"I-It's your son!" She panted. "He's taken a turn for the worst!"

"Junn," her eyes widened as she ran to her son's room, despite her pain in her lower half.

Toshiro looked to his father. "Look. I know what Junn said, but you weren't here for us when we were born...At least be here for Junn if he dies..." He breathed before rushing after his mother.

Torakkaa frowned as he watched his ex-wife and son run down the hall. He sighed and began to run after them.

When they had reached the room, doctors and nurses surrounded Junn doing chest compressions. His hair was white rather than silver.

Tomoe screamed as she immediately started to cry. Toshiro wrapped his arms around his mother and hugged her against his chest. He frowned as he watched his brother. It didn't feel real. He couldn't believe that Junn was dying right in front of him.

Torakkaa frowned at the sight as he looked down at his hands. He was a demi-god. There was nothing he could do... right?

Tomoe shook her head, sobbing. "No! No! Th-This can't b-be happening!" She screamed into Toshiro's chest.

Toshiro simply frowned, not saying anything. He had failed his brother. He promised Junn he wouldn't die. How could he ever be the man he was supposed to be if he couldn't save his brother?

With another ten minutes, the doctors deemed Junn dead and stopped trying to revive him. They left the room to give the family time to pay their respects.

Torakkaa frowned as he watched his son and ex-wife run to Junn's bedside. The male's hair was white and his skin nearly as pale. Blood still stained the corner of his lips, but he looked peaceful.

"My baby!" Tomoe screamed as she took Junn's head in her arms and held him against her chest. She kissed his head, stroked his hair, and sobbed.

Toshiro simply stood by his brother's bed. He frowned as his hair turned completely blue, tears silently streaming down his face. He couldn't believe his twin was dead.

Torakkaa stepped to the foot of the bed and looked at his son. He had never felt emotions like he was since his own sister died before him the first time. "Junn..." He breathed.

Toshiro turned to look at his father. At least his father was there. It was the first time Torakkaa was present in a major event in any of their lives. He wasn't there when they were born. He wasn't there when they were growing up. And he wasn't there at any of their weddings or children's births. But for this...at least he was there.

Torakkaa looked back down at his hands as they began to glow softly. He could do it... but it meant his own end...

Toshiro took in a deep breath as he saw his father's glowing hands. Was he...going to do that?

Torakkaa lifted his eyes to meet with Toshiro's. A small smile came over his lips as the glow moved from his body to Junn's.

Toshiro frowned as he watched the light around his father diminish and Junn's body start to luminate. His eyes widened slightly and he opened his mouth in surprise.

Tomoe still cried, but she reduced to sniffles as she saw Junn's body start to glow. Her eyes widened as she blinked back tears. "H-Hoshi...?"

Torakkaa's body started to become transparent as he was giving what was left of his life force to revive his son. He was going to die anyway... why not die saving his son?

Toshiro took in a deep breath. "Dad..."

Tomoe's eyes looked fearful as she saw Torakkaa's body start to disappear. She was stunned.

"I'm... sorry I failed all of you..." Torakkaa breathed, closing his eyes as a couple tears escaped and his body disappeared.

Toshiro had a few more tears escape before looking at his brother.

"H-Hoshi..." Tomoe whimpered.

Colour had returned to Junn's skin and hair as his eyes fluttered open. He sat upright and hacked some left over blood into his hand before looking between his mother and twin.

Tomoe blinked back a few tears before throwing her arms around her son's neck, hugging him again. She nuzzled into his shoulder as she cried a bit more but happily. Her son was back.

Toshiro took in a deep breath. He'd witnessed the deaths of both his brother and father, but now, Junn was sitting upright. His father had committed a selfless act of love. He knew his father cared for his children.

"Wh-What happened?" Junn breathed.

Tomoe sniffled as she stroked his hair.

"Do you...remember anything?" Toshiro asked.

"Yes... I-I died... right...?"

Toshiro nodded. "Yeah...but..." He took in a deep breath. "Junn...I'm sorry...I couldn't save you, but...Dad did. He gave you what was left of his life..."

"No he didn't." Junn scoffed.

"Yes, he did." Toshiro nodded. "Junn...Dad's dead."

Tomoe squeaked a bit as she snapped her eyes closed. She didn't want to hear it.

“No... no he's not..." He breathed.

"Junn...I wouldn't lie about this..."

Tomoe's hair turned blue as she gripped her necklace, tears falling down her cheeks. She was so happy her son was alive, but her heart was still broken at the realization of her ex-husband's death. She never stopped loving him.

Junn looked at his mother before looking up at Toshiro. "S-So..." He frowned and looked at his lap.

Suddenly, a light formed in the room again and Torakkaa reappeared - completely human, with chakra, not godly powers. Torakkaa was now Hoshi once again.

"H-Huh...?" He looked down at his hands before back at his family. "I-I... was supposed to die..."

"Dad...?" Toshiro's eyes widened.

Tomoe's breath caught in her chest as she looked at him. He had been always attractive to her in his godly form, but there was something about his pure human form that took her breath away. "H-Hoshi...?" She said softly before getting to her feet and running to him. She threw her arms around his neck and kissed him long and hard.

His eyes widened at the kiss. As she pulled away, he blinked. "I... I don't... understand..."

Tomoe blushed as she looked down. "I...I, uh..." She bit her lip, her eyes lighting up pink. "I...I thought you had died..." She said softly.

Hoshi shook his head as he pulled her back into his chest, closing his eyes. "T-Tomoe... I-I love you... so much..." He breathed. "I-I can't lose you again... b-but... I know you're involved with Riku now..."

Tomoe hugged him back and squeezed her eyes shut. She breathed in his scent and listened to his voice. His heart had a strong, steady beat which calmed her down. She would give anything to stay in his arms. "I...love you so much..." She breathed. "Riku wants me happy...That's all he ever wanted...I think you could finally make me happy now that you're human again."

"Tomoe..." He pulled back to look at her. "I... I know that your clan is known for incest and multiple lovers... so... I wouldn't be mad... if you kept what you have with Riku..."

Tomoe looked up at him and sniffled. "You...You would?" She smiled slightly.

He nodded. "Yeah... I... I don't think so... I want to be with you... and our three kids... I want to... one day make all three of them love me..."

"Oh, Hoshi..." Tomoe breathed, leaning up to kiss him softly on the lips. "I love you...so so much..."

It was then that Riku and Kohaku had rushed into the room.

"T-Tomoe I am so sorry! I found Kohaku and was telling him what was going on w-we were just told that..." He trailed off when he saw Junn sitting up in bed, alive and well.

"Oh Riku!" Tomoe quickly went to her twin and hugged him.

"Junn!" Kohaku rushed to his husband and took his head in his hands. He kissed him all over, not flinching at the blood. He thought he had lost him. "Oh Junn!"

Junn closed his eyes as he held his husband. "I-I was so scared..."

Riku blinked at the impact and glanced at the brunette. He looked like... Hoshiko... "T-Torakkaa?"

"Hoshi... I'm... human again..." He breathed.

Tomoe pulled back and looked at Riku. "He's not a god anymore...He gave the last of his powers to Junn to save his life." She breathed before biting her lip. "We...We want to try again...but! Hoshi doesn't mind me still being with you..."

Riku blinked. "So... what's that mean for our three children, Tomoe?"

"We can all be together," she breathed. "You'll be their father...I won't ever take that away from you, Riku...and we can still be together too...but...Hoshi and I...want to work on us. Our marriage...We want to have a chance to be a family..."

"I just... I want you to be happy... but... I don't want to be casted away either..."

Tomoe shook her head. "No...I won't cast you aside...You've always been there for me, Riku," she told him softly, taking his hand. "I would never treat you so badly after all that you've done for me..."

He nodded and looked at the floor. It still tugged at him. He had fallen in love with his sister. Was it selfish of him to say he didn't want to lose what they had?

Tomoe tilted his face to look at her. "Hey..." She smiled softly. "I love you..."

He searched her eyes. "And... I love you..."

She kissed him lightly. "But...just how you can't choose between Anita and Kaoru...I can't choose between you and Hoshi..." She breathed. "I...wanna keep you both..."

"But... things are going to change..." He breathed.

Tomoe frowned a bit. "I'll still need your help with the twins...and Loki..." She breathed. "And...we can still be together..." She circled her finger on his chest as she spoke with him.

"It... just won't feel the same..." He sighed. "You won't be just mine..."

Tomoe frowned and looked at him. "Well...you weren't just mine..."

He sighed. "I... guess you have a point..."

“Riku..." She took his face in her hands. "I love you. I'll remind you that I love you whenever I can." She breathed, leaning in to kiss him softly. "But...I love Hoshi too and I want to remind him why I love him too...I have children with both of you and I want to make both families work."

He nodded. "I understand... just don't leave Loki alone so soon... he's still a newborn..."

Tomoe nodded. "Of course not...Besides, I can't be with either of you two for at least a month...I still hurt," she mumbled.

He chuckled some. "Well... are we all ready to go home then?"

Toshiro shook his head. "I'm going to stay with Junn while they finish the paperwork to discharge him. Tell Tatana I'll be home in a bit, okay?"

"Alright." Riku nodded as he headed out with Tomoe and Hoshi.

"I'll be home soon." Junn smiled at Kohaku. "Don't worry... Toshiro will look after me..."

"Are you sure, love?" Kohaku asked, touching Junn's cheek.

Junn nodded. "I promise... I'll be home soon... have a bath ready for me, please?" He begged.

Kohaku nodded. "Alright...I'll make us a bath," he breathed and leaned in to kiss his cheek. "I love you..."

"I love you." Junn smiled as he watched him walk out before looking up at Toshiro and giving a goofy grin.

Toshiro blinked and tilted his head. "What's with the grin?" He asked, sitting down on the edge of Junn's bed.

Junn blushed faintly. "I-I don't know..." He blushed deeper. "I-I... wanted... to?" He looked at his hands in his lap.

Toshiro smiled softly and ran his hand through Junn's hair. "I like it when you smile..."

Junn leaned into Toshiro's hand and searched his eyes. "Did... you feel something... when I died?"

Toshiro frowned but nodded. "Of course...I...I failed you, Junn...I had promised you I would save you...but I didn't." He breathed.

"Toshiro... I don't blame it on you... we don't even know what made me ill..." He grabbed his twin's face in his hands. "You could never fail me..."

“I just...promised to do something...but I couldn't do it..." He frowned.

Junn shook his head, pressing their forehead's together. "Please... please stop..."

“I lost you..." Toshiro spoke softly.

Junn started tearing up. "I-I've lost you before too..."

Toshiro frowned. "I'm sorry..."

Junn closed his eyes as he let the tears fall. He moved his face in Toshiro's neck, sniffling. "I just... love you s-so much, brother... s-sometimes I wish i-it was just you and I... l-like when we were growing up..."

"Like when we were growing up?" Toshiro breathed, stroking Junn's hair. "But...you have Kohaku...and I have Tatana...Aren't you happy with your husband?"

"O-Of course but... he can't love me like you could..." He mumbled.

"Are you...not happy with him?" Toshiro asked, tilting his head.

He pulled back to meet his eyes. "I am happy... but... I feel like we're always lacking something..." He mumbled. "I-I'm sorry... you have everything you need... Tatana... many children... you get along with father..." He shook his head.

"Junn?"

He looked up to see a nurse.

"Here's your papers. Sign them and get dressed and meet us at the counter before you leave, okay?" She smiled before leaving, shutting the door behind her to give Junn privacy to change.

Toshiro looked at him. "Junn...what is it that you want?" He asked. "I know you...and that gaze...You want something, right?"

"N-No..." Junn breathed as he got up, using the bed as support as he moved to his clothes to get changed.

"Junn...you can tell me anything. Hell, I'll give you anything." Toshiro breathed. "I can't lose you!" He shook his head.

"You're not losing me." Junn chuckled some as he took off he hospital gown, only standing in boxers as he reached for his pants off the counter to pull on.

Toshiro frowned. "Then why won't you tell me?"

“It doesn't matter. It's stupid..." He mumbled, pulling his pants up before reaching for his shirt.

"It's not stupid." He shook his head. "Junn...whatever you want, I'll give it to you." He breathed.

Junn shook his head as he pulled his shirt on and went to grab the papers. "We have to go, remember? Discharge?"

Toshiro nodded. "Alright...but seriously, Junn...you can ask anything of me." He breathed. "Tatana and I were talking about it before you came in with your illness..."

He blinked. "Wh-What do you mean?"

He shrugged. "If you wanted anything..." Toshiro blushed a bit, looking away. "She said she'd let you even have sex with me because you were too cute to say no or be angry at."

He turned a deep red and looked away.

Toshiro blinked. "What's wrong? Not feeling ill still, are you?"

"No... I'm ah... I'm fine...”

"Oh...good." He smiled softly.

“S-So… are we ready to go?” Junn asked, looking at his twin.

Toshiro nodded, getting to his feet and going to his brother. “Ready.” He breathed.

Junn bit his lip before leaning up to kiss Toshiro hard.

Toshiro blinked. Usually it was Toshiro who would kiss Junn. It was rare for the other twin to initiate it.

Junn couldn’t help himself as he kissed Toshiro passionately. He didn’t want to die again unless Toshiro knew exactly what his twin meant to him.

Toshiro held Junn close to him as he kissed him back. It was passionate but deep. He could feel Junn’s tongue fight for dominance.

Junn’s eyes fluttered as he fell back on the bed, but refused to break away as a couple tears slipped from his eyes.

Toshiro dug his fingers into Junn’s hips as he kissed him harder. He pressed himself against him and moaned into his mouth. He didn’t care that they were still in the hospital room.

Junn shook his head as he broke away in sobs. “I-I’m sorry!”

Toshiro panted and looked at him. “Is this… what you want?” He breathed.

Junn hid his face as he cried.

“Don’t cry, Junn…” Toshiro said as he leaned in and kissed Junn’s tears away.

“I-I’m sorry…” He whimpered.

“Is this what you want?” Toshiro asked again.

“I-I’ve always w-wanted this…” He cried. “I-I just knew I couldn’t! I-I just want you to realize how much I love you…”

Toshiro leaned in and kissed him again. He loved his brother and wanted to make him happy. No matter the request, he would do it. He loved him.

Junn shook his head and pushed away as he moved to sit higher on the bed, his arms wrapped around himself as he whimpered.

“Junn…” Toshiro looked at him. “I love you…”

“N-Not the same way…” He sniffled.

“I would do anything for you, Junn…” He breathed.

“I don’t want you to feel obligated! I want you to have your own thoughts!”

“But Junn…”

“L-Let’s just go…” He sniffled, grabbing the paperwork and going for the door.

Toshiro shook his head and grabbed Junn’s wrist. He took in a deep breath. “I’m… curious…” He blushed.

“N-No you’re not…” He whimpered. “D-Don’t lie…”

“I am… I’ve… always been curious.” He breathed. “I just didn’t know how to ask…”

“Wh-What about Tatana…?”

“She said it was alright… if you asked for it…” He told him. “If you wish it, she couldn’t get mad. She called you too cute to get mad over…”

“B-But… what if you like it?”

“Then… we could keep quiet about it… if you don’t want Kohaku to know…” He breathed.

Junn frowned. “A-Are you really not lying?”

Toshiro nodded. “I wouldn’t lie to you, Junn…”

“W-Well… where do you want to go?”

Toshiro blushed. “I don’t know…”

“How about… later tonight? We’ll go for a walk after dinner and find a hotel…?”

Toshiro nodded. “Alright…” He smiled softly and took Junn’s hand. “Ready to go then?”

He nodded.